Saturday, September 20, 2008

LONG overdue..

Hello, Friends!

How've ya been? I've been... well, doing pretty well actually. I "hit" another "bump in the road" a couple of weeks ago and struggled a while with, hhmmm, I don't know what to call it. I don't want to say I've struggled with depression, but maybe that's it? I guess it's understandable. Anyway, I PRAISE JESUS for being my Comforter, my ROCK, my LORD! I truly cannot imagine how people deal with the death of a loved one without HIM. As you have probably already heard me say, this is the time of year when things started going DOWN HILL for Brent. We were told we should "keep him comfortable" but REFUSED to give up. At least not when he appeared so healthy still.

Then, I tend to get "down" when I think about the upcoming holidays. We pretty much KNEW by Thanksgiving that it would be our last with Brent. By Christmas, well, we'd made the gut-wrenching decision to take him back to Memphis and wait for him to go HOME. (We'd been in Vermont as a last effort to make him well) Now, add to that his birthday is coming.. October 28. I guess it's just a BIG OLE MIX of EVERYTHING.

Oh, I'm pretty sure I've not mentioned it here, but I did a post on "Laced With Grace". In it, I talked about the struggles I had with faith (and GOD) after we lost him. Check it out if you'd like.

Now, I shared all of that with you to tell you how I've been. God has DELIVERED me from another dark moment in time. (I'm sure there will be many more until we too, go HOME)Isn't it a BLESSED thing to KNOW that we have an ETERNAL HOME with our LORD?? =-)

Okay, to change the subject a bit..

Have I told you that the boys have started flag football? They're SO CUTE, all those little ones! They are LOVING it!! (You wouldn't BELIEVE how many home-school children there are in our group!) WOW!!

Oh, I also told you that I'd share those crazy garden pictures. Well, whatever made the computers work has reversed. Now our supposed "wireless" isn't working again. UGH! I sure didn't want to start unloading a TON of pictures on Link's new computer because I KNOW that's what played a HUGE part in slowing down the other one. (I'm NOTORIOUS for making TOO MANY pictures) They actually joked about making me a hood ornament when we went on a mission trip a few years ago because I hung out of the window snapping shots. (Hey, in my defence we were in lots of MOUNTAINS and it was BEAUTIFUL!!!)

I'll go AS SOON as I finish this update and TRY to connect it AGAIN! I just had an idea as I was typing this. I can upload those pictures and take the laptop somewhere wi-fi is offered. (I'm S.L.O.W. - I admit it) O=-)

Alrighty, I think I'm going to go now. I'm inspired to try to get those pictures up TODAY!

THANKS SO MUCH to those of you who've checked in so often even when I've been slacking in my posts. I also wanted to say THANKS again to everyone that sponsored our "virtual walk." You guys are simply AMAZING!

I hope to check back soon...

LOVE YOU!
Tonya

5 comments:

Amy S. said...

Tonya,

I'm so glad you posted...I have missed you and been thinking of you a lot.
Hang in there...life is "one day at a time"..

Love ya..

Love and Hugs...

Susan said...

Hey Tonya,

Welcome back! You have been missed.

I can't begin to even imagine, (or would want to try to) all the many emotions you experience daily.

It really has not been that long that Brent went to be with Jesus, and adjusting to your new norm, well, I would imagine would take a very, very LONG time.

Don't be hard on yourself. Everyone is different, so we grieve that way.

You always amaze me. No matter what you are going through, you still let your light shine for Jesus. You are so giving and caring towards others.

I'm just one the privileged who got to know you more intimately. I thought you were great from reading Brent's CB page, but then when we met in person, oh my...

Anyhow, I'm going to read your article. Now, you did NOT TELL ME!! OK, I'm going to forgive you for this one!! (bad girl) :(

LOVE YOU TONYA!!

Faith Hope Love Mama said...

I checked in earlier and didn't see a new post but thought I would try tonight. I was thinking of you lately knowing that birthdays are coming up and more holidays to come. I know it was hard this time last year but I know and believe along side you that Brent is healed and whole and praise God for that. I just pray that the hole in your family does not feel so deep and hurt so badly. I missed you friend and am glad to know that God has been your comforter. Blessings dear mama.

Reba said...

So glad to see a post but sorry it has been a rough few weeks. I still think about you often and hope that you are able to just rest in His arms.

We recently got a new laptop (or rather I did...Mark had one for work). The reason? The 8000 pictures I had stored on my desktop really slowed it down. But for some reason, I have a hard time deleting...
Reba

Young Creations said...

Hey Tonya,
Thanks so much for stopping by to say hi. I love hearing from you. The weight lose has been life changing for me. I am feeling so much better. I will be honest though and say it is tough. Every little bit of it.

I am glad your boys are having fun with flag football. I love football so much.
I hope you have a great time with your family.
Miss you tons.
Lauren