I'm a little late posting today.. we've been schooling along with all the other "Monday stuff," and I'm FINALLY able to sit and write. In trying to decide which miracle to share, I decided to tell you about a time in recent past when I was in a GREAT struggle with GOD. Before I explain, I'd like to thank Beth for the sweet things she said in her post today. I'm honored that you shared our story.
Okay.. on with this post. After we lost Brent I wasn't quite sure what to believe about GOD. We'd been "encouraged" by some other believers that if we believed hard enough... spoke the word and claimed it enough.. that Brent would be healed. Our sweet little man lay there the last week of his life PRAISING GOD for his healing. He thanked HIM over and over again for it. Then... we lost him.
I wondered if GOD would allow such a thing to happen after we stood on HIS WORD exactly WHERE did we go wrong? (See, the first problem was that we depended on ourselves for the healing. It was up to GOD all along) Remember the passage that says,
1 John 5:13-15 (New International Version)
13I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life. 14This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. 15And if we know that He hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of Him.
See, it wasn't GOD'S will that Brent be healed (on earth).
One night while sitting on the front porch of our friends home (during Bible study) everyone started to singing praise songs. I sat there voicing to GOD how I felt towards HIM. I began to cry and asked HIM to let me SEE HIM. I told HIM "I need to KNOW that YOU'RE THERE."
The very next song they sang was, "As the Deer." (Yes, as this song starts I'm still asking GOD to let me see HIM) I looked up and there was a deer, feeding just a few yards away.
I began to SOB uncontrollably as I thought of how GOD caused the deer to come out at just the right time - to show HIMSELF to me. OH, how HE LOVES US! I'm still humbled by that display of HIS loving character. What a MIGHTY GOD we serve! (Oh, and just so you don't think I'm a loony toon... I didn't mean that GOD took the form of a deer, just that HE used the deer to show HIS love for me)
For most posts on this "Miracle Monday" visit Beth at "A Mom's Life."
Now, I want to thank those who posted with me yesterday. I won't ask you to read the entire post, but PLEASE take a moment to read about childhood cancer. (It's bottom of the post just below) Then click the link to email the right people in effort to get more funding for research. THANK YOU SO MUCH!