Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Catching up...

Okay.. so I've been saying I'd fill you in on what we've been doing. I finally have a moment and if you do too then grab your favorite beverage and get COMFY! This may take a while. HA!!!

On the most serious of notes (and to get the bad out of the way first) I told you that last week I'd been in a "slump." Well, there was another "milestone" in our walk without Brent that we had to cross. See, the church where he was laid to rest had it's "Memorial" this past Sunday. I knew it was coming and my mood seemed to be all over the place.

Brent, Zach & Gabe all used to go every year with their grandpa to clean the family grave sites. I don't want it to sound morbid when I say it was something the boys enjoyed doing. It wasn't "fun" to hang at the cemetery... it was FUN because they were hanging with their grandpa. (And at the time there was NOBODY that they had ever known or loved buried there.. until now)

So this year Link went with his dad to clean up and we (Link & I) took the boys back on Saturday to put new flowers out. It's an INCREDIBLY hard thing to do. I KNOW that our boy isn't REALLY there - he's doing whatever it is that the "saints" do when they get to HEAVEN. (I'm assuming that's sitting at the feet of JESUS, or BOWING in PRAISE?) All that really matters is that he's EXPERIENCING LIFE like we can't even imagine here. He's not hurting or sick and we WILL see him again! (GLORY!)

See, we take care of things "up there" (at the cemetery) out of love and respect... but it's not to "go visit." Brent is MORE ALIVE to me when I'm at home remembering all of his funny antics or the special times he'd walk up, put his arms around me and tell me that he loved me. (And also those moments that I'd find the boys actually being sweet to each other... THOSE memories are PRICELESS) Thanks to JESUS, the grave isn't the end! (It may seem to be to people that aren't "believers" but as Christians we know it's TRULY THE BEGINNING)

So... that catches us up on why I tried so hard to keep my mind busy last week... and why I spent so little time online. Believe me, you guys were MISSED! =-) While I'm sharing stories about the 3 boys, I've got another picture I'd like to share. It was taken of them not long after we moved into our new house...

Okay, I thought I'd share more in this post, but if I do it's going to be really, REALLY LONG! I'll share the funny pictures I mentioned in my last update and the story behind them the next time I post.

THANKS SO MUCH for stopping in and for the prayers that many of you have lifted for our family. GOD is TRULY our STRENGTH, JOY, AND HOPE!

Until next time...

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Milk Mama said...

All of your boys are so handsome! It looks like they truly love one another!!! :D
I wish that I could visit my brother's grave. That was one of the hardest things about him being buried across the country.
It doesn't sound like a morbid tradition at all. It sounds like a great idea!

e-Mom said...

A marvellous photo of the boys! I don't blame you for being all out of whack. Just let whatever comes, come.

It's nice to have you back in bloggityville today.


Susan said...

Oh Tonya,

I thought the Memorial Day was THIS coming Sunday! I wish I would of known, I would of called you last Sunday♥

Well, I'm glad this is yet another milestone, BEHIND you.

Funny, this Sunday our Pastor concluded a great series he's been teaching on Eternity. It's been awesome.

We read and went over some really neat things in Revelations about Heaven.

I can't help but get real EXCITED when I read about what is to come,
oh what a hope and future we have!

Here's my favorite part:

1Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea.

2I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband.

3And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God.

4He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

5He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true."

Wow, just a quick glimpse, or preview of what is to come!

Blessings to you my precious friend, I'm praying you through.

Tonya, your faithfulness to God through this all has been such a MIGHTY testimony of HOPE for us all.

Love you~

Christine said...

{{hugs}} Your three boys are so cute together. :)

A Stone Gatherer said...

My heart hurts for you as you walk this road! Just know you are in my thoughts and prayers! What great memories too! That picture of the boys is priceless!

crispy said...

I am praying that you go through the process and feel the feelings.

Sorry it is hard.